My life doesn't deserve to be happy........

I'm living in my dreams without any hopes
I'm living in this world with my body present and mind absent
This world has made my heart into tiny pieces which will never be fixed
I though I will find happiness at some point of time
but I realised that I doesn't deserve happiness for this life
I guess someone will be happy watching me crying
and he wants to make sure that I will never be happy
I'm living in this world as I dont have anyother option