my feelings in this stupid life.......

Closing my eyes most of the time to cover my sufferring
I'm wearing a smile to hide my pain
Time moves very slow when we wanted it to move fast
I'm addicted to internet, now finding difficult to avid
I became close to my friends, now its hard to remove that closeness
Everyone says it's beautiful life but I never found any beauty in my life
I feel its a stupid life without love in any relation
I just feel its a stupid life without any happiness